Phobia.

I mentioned in a previous blog that I had an injection coming up. Well, that time has been and gone and I still haven't had the injection. Truth be told, I have a BIG phobia of any sharp objects coming near me. A lot of people in my school decided to take advantage of this poor situation because they found it funny and so they used to wave scissors near my face on purpose and parade their compasses through the air [the sharp pencilly ones, not the ones for people with no sense of direction].
Anyway, so I got all the way down to the canteen and lined up and by the time I actually got to the front of the queue I was feeling extremely faint and was vaguely aware that I was hyperventilating which made my head swim quite a bit. When it was my turn to go in, I sat down and the annoying lady got frustrated with me because I was hyperventilating too much to speak. She was a right rude cow! Anyway she told me I was wasting her time and practically kicked me out the room [metaphorically of course]. All in all, not a good day.
So I got home and I told my mum what happened and in the Summer Holidays she booked a doctors appointment for me to go and get it done there. When the day arrived, I pretty much started having a panic attack before we'd even got there. It turned out much the same as at school, with the exception of a nicer nurse and one of those beds with the crackly toilet roll paper on it. She tried to get me to lye down and have it done but I automatically sat back up when she went to get the needle. She tried to get me to face the wall, but I kept looking round every two seconds and she tried to trick me by going for my other arm when I wasn't looking but I caught her out. Basically, she got nowhere near me with the needle and I feel bad because I wasted it.
Anyway the reason all of this has popped into my thoughts is because although I still haven't had this one done yet, I'm due to have the first of three HPV jabs on Monday or Tuesday. I put myself down to have them done because this is the only chance I will get but I can pretty much already tell it's going to be an Epic Fail!
Wish me luck, I think I'm going to need it.